Lash lift...

I have never done lash lift before until yesterday. Prior to lash lift treatment I would like to thank Le.Lash for making me pretty and approaching me to go for lash lift as the treatment is done on natural eyelashes and also Wudhu friendly. I'm really happy with the result! Like when I woke up today, I feel sooooo extra! I could feel my lashes touch my brow bone! How can I describe this feeling ah? I guess everyone who had their eyelashes lifted knows how it feels? But I amazed with the treatment cause I was pretty nervous as I don't know what to expect, really! But I was assured by Evon that I shouldn't be nervous and just take a nap during the process. Thank you sweets for the great hospitality!

Guys, you can drop your comment on how you feel when you had your eyelashes lifted below cause I can't seem to express it! Hahaha

Differences between eyelash extensions with eyelash lift

Lash lift vs Lash perm

Lash Perms

* Does not lift lashes from the root.

* Lashes are wrapped around metal rod, followed by a curling cream on the lashes and making it curled inwards in all directions. 

Lash lift

* It lift lashes upwards from the root

* The silicone is placed on the lashes is tight enough that you can feel the pulling sensation from the root. *But don't worry, it doesn't hurt at all*

Are lash lifts for everyone?

For monolids or hooded eyelids, the effects of a lash lift might not be as pronounced or long-lasting compared to those with double eyelids. "If your eyelid is shaped i a way that pushes your lashes down, and if your lashes are quite short, then I would not recommend lash lift," says Tan. Lash extensions are a sound of investment in this case, especially since it results in a more apparent finish. Note that lash lifts only help to lift the lashes, and not to help it grow in length or volume.

After getting the lash lift treatment, here's are the things that you should bare in mind.

** This lash lift lasts for 6-8 weeks**

BUT GUYS WORRY NO MORE! Le Lash also offer other services;

Want to look beautiful for Raya? Graduation? Family Events? Wedding Events? Daily Look? Book your slots now! Le Lash is home-based service (she lives somewhere near OneCity) and she is doing it part-time. So, it is better for you to book your slot 2-3 days before your appointment to avoid disappointment! 

If you have any further inquiry, do not hesitate to visit her Instagram Le.Lash and giver some love ;)

Before and after the lash lift 

Before

After

The only drawback is that you keep on wanting to do it more and more!

The information is mostly from @_Le.Lash and the slots for Raya is filling! DM your slots now! 

Book review for Khayalan by Hasif Rayyan

Author Bio

Hasif Rayyan, Malaysian novel writer. Graduated in IPG International Language Campus majoring in TESL and now teaching in primary school somewhere in Kuala Lumpur. Khayalan is one of his works.

Twitter: @HasifRayyan

Instagram: @hasifrayyan

Blogspot: hasifrayyan.blogspot.com

Synopsis

"Kau yang jemput dia kembali, kan?" Kalau tak, takkanlah dia muncul tanpa sebab." Mungkin Rakzhan betul, fikir Hasif. Setiap kali dia ada perasaan begitu, lembaga itu pasti muncul.

Setiap kali ia muncul, tubuh Hasif akan menggeletar tak terkawal, nafas mendengus kuat, wajahnya tegang dengan mata terbuntang di balik bingkai cermin mata yang dipakai.

Ya, memang Hasif takut dengan sang lembaga. Baginya itulah ketakutan yang paling besar. Namun dia tidak tahu, ketakutan sebenarnya datang daripada sesuatu yang lebih dekat.

Review

I would say this book is kind of heavy despite of the title khayalan or maybe it was just me? I thought this book is going to be light one but I was wrong! This book is basically talks about imaginary friend, Rakzhan that Hasif has created himself. I'm not going to talk so much on the plot but this book will bring you to his world and you can feel the emotional ride along the way. If you happen to have this book but you haven't read it, I recommend you to read it.

Relatable

Here I've picked two lines from the book that hits me hard.

"Realiti tidak begitu. Sahabat akan datang dan pergi. Sebab munculnya mereka dalam hidup kau adalah untuk berikan kau sesuatu. Dan mereka akan pergi apabila sudah tak ada apa-apa lagi boleh diberikan kepada kau" - Rakzhan

The quote above got me right in the feels. To my friends who still stay, thank you so much for keeping up with me through my lowest. Those who left, thank you for making me realize that life is not just all about you, it's about me too. Us, together. And now I've to learn how to prioritized myself before others.

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To that one person.....

It took me almost a decade for me to write about this person, 그사람 means that person.

그사람, is someone who is special to me.

그사람, I truly am sorry for leaving you alone.... in the dark.... thinking that I was doing the right thing by leaving you.

To that person that have special spot in my heart, it has been 8 years and I never knew that it hurts this much. I regret it...

Even until this moment...

The moment I'm writing about you..

What have I done?

I'm sorry.....

Really

Am..

Sorry..

Maybe this is what I deserve. I was too stupid for thinking that you're better off without me, thinking that you could ace your studies. How can I hold you when everyone is expecting you to be the top student in school and that time you had your own goal. Goal to achieve, and what about me? I don't even have one back then. I was in dilemma whether to be honest with you or to just to lie.

But,

I decided to lie to you, I told you that I have someone else who loves me more. Fyi, we weren't in the same school that time but we met in one of the leadership programmes that was hosted by one of the sixth form centers. Little did I know we were in the same group and you were selected as the leader of the group and I was assisting you in leading the group. And that's how the story goes....

We get along together during the program and I got attracted to him, we exchange phone numbers and Twitter! After the program finished, we kept in touch through Twitter and everything was beautiful to me.

So beautiful...

That I don't want to let go but, as the exams are nearing, I get anxious.

This anxiety

I couldn't sit still.... I feel guilty. Like, what if he couldn't score on his exams? That time, I thought the worst. I care about what people think about me. I care how people look at me. I don't want them to look at you and say "this is why you shouldn't date someone" or "your score has dropped because you are with someone right now".

I know, I was wrong. I know... I know that....  If I could turn back time, I wouldn't want to lie to you. That's my biggest regret. I should have talked to you about what's making me insecure. I know this is cliche but, if I could turn back time and even I lose you again, I should've told you the real thing.... I should have done that. I should've done that so I won't feel this way. Holding it for years and years.

Trust me, since day one, you have been really nice to me even until now. Though now is kind of awkward? Cause I just texted you out of nowhere and for sure it took you by surprise, after 8 years? Who in a right mind would do that right? Actually I'm not sure myself whether I'm doing the right thing or not but, that's the least thing I could do right? After doing that, I feel like a stupid person for letting my guard down and I look desperate. 

Yes...

I'm desperate to see him again,

But who am I to ask that?

I'm not even qualified to ask

Cause,

I'm no longer that someone that is important to him. 

For once, I want us to start over again,

I want to see you,

I want to talk to you,

I want to talk to be by your side,

I want to tell you "I miss you",

I want to tell you "I like you",

I want to tell you that I never lie when I told you "I love you",

So it happened when one of my friends ask about my love life and one of the things that she asked was "Is there any guy that made you feel complete?" I was thinking hard about that thing and 그사람 (that person) popped out in my mind and I said "Yes" to my friend. My friend was thrilled when I said that and she was like "Woooooow. Spill!" The moment she asked me that, I was nervous all over again. I don't know what has gotten to me but I was happy talking about him that day but after meeting my friend, while I was driving back home I was listening to one of song covers by Teme Abdullah - Kisah Antara Kita and I was so immersed and I felt there was a warm drop on my cheek. I was really sad that time and it feels like the world is going against me. I was trying to run away from me but I couldn't run anymore. My legs just gave up and I crumbled to the ground. It's crushing me. It hurts. It hurts so bad. I screamed my heart out but no one is listening. I don't know to whom I should talk about this. I can't seem to talk about it openly with my friends. After that meet up with my friend, I can't seem to sit still. My mind was all about him. I even try to sleep it off cause usually if I cannot do anything about something I will force myself to sleep but not that night. That night I was not in my right mind. I wanted to call my friend that night but it was past midnight and she had her own things to settle. So I decided just to take it all in and comfort myself that I can figure things out. I was holding it in until I couldn't, so I grabbed my phone and searched this friend's name and start texting her.

"Hey Wanda (not real name). I know this is out of the blue but is it possible for me to get 그사람's phone number? If you don't mind."

*shared contact*

The moment she shared me his contact. I couldn't believe that I get to have his phone number because he was no longer using his old phone number. Both local phone number and UK number. I was devastated at first but since Wanda gave me his phone number, I found hope again. I praised to God that I managed to get his phone number again. 

So, I typed a long message and sent it to him. After sending the text, I threw my phone and buried my head in my pillow. AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Did I really send the text? To 그사람? After 8 years? SHIIIIIZZZ what am I suppose to do?  

I know things are not how it is used to be. I'm aware of it. It's been 8 years. 8 freaking years Babo! I don't even know how you are doing for the past 8 years. I'm such a coward. I'm a loser. A big fat loser for leaving you just like that. I know one day I will regret this and YES! I REGRET IT BIG TIME! 

Sometimes I do wonder, what should I do? Is there anything that  can do? I'm lost with no direction. I'm lost in my own play. I've have lost so much things until the point that I feel numb. Numb because of my own stupidity. I thought by staying quiet about this would make me forget about you but, it's the other way round. When the time is nearing to your birthday, I would lock myself up and reflect on things I have done to you since the day I left you or reminisce every moment with you. I would go to our twitter conversations and cry myself to sleep. 

*sigh*

I never told this to any of my friends but, since I decided to blog this, I will write on how I feel about you since the day 1. If I could attach the conversations I would but I don't people to look at it and say I'm obsessed. Or am I? hahaha I'm kidding. I'm not obsessed but I live with guilt for the past years until I decided to text him. 

He replied my texts and it was fine on the first day I texted him but I couldn't get on with the conversation because it was past midnight. I don't want him to feel restless. So I ended the texts with a simple good night. 

On the second day, I texted him hi and he did reply but he was busy that night and I texted him again the next day. I initiated the conversation. I left another long text message with belated birthday greeting as well and the conversation went cold. In the end....

I just texted him have a great weekend!

That was my last text to him. 

*sigh*

I should feel content about it. I should feel happy that he even replied my texts! But why am I not pleased by the texts? Is it because of my greed? My expectations on him?

I DON'T KNOW

그사람

Just another mess.