Assalammualaikum and hello guys!

Today I'm going to post about love letterrrsss!!! It's the love letters I received when I was in Palangkaraya, during the youth leadership programme. I thought it would be best if I keep it here too just in case I lost it or you know ink issues? Hehehe

Also I want to share how lovable they are to me! <3

Honestly, some love letters were written on the very last minute. Like the morning that we have to go back to Brunei, but it doesn't matter~~ what matters are their sincerity!

Okay~ Here goes nothing~~

"To: Izza

Dear Mak Cik (Izza)

Hello, you are the good person that I meet here. Even I can't to always speak up with you, I'm so passive I'm sorry. But I love you from my heart. I wish you enjoy your times in Indonesia, especially Palangkaraya City :)

From me,

FA"

"My Sister The Diva Izzah

Dear Izzah,

Hello my sister, I already miss your laugh now. Since the first day, I should introduced you. It was so challenging. I'm so shy and nervous because I just got up from a nap. I can feel this family bond when we went to Matahari. You are so wise, keep it sister. I don't know what I should write because I feel it with my heart. We also have so many similarities. I can't wait to meet you again, and I'm going to share everything that I can to Masker.

You are so smart, warmhearted. humble, funny, gorgeous and Real Diva. I can't believe it this program run so fast, but our relationship will be forever. I'm waiting for your wedding invitation and meet Junior Alexa.

You never looked sad in front of us, I know it was so hard. I know how does it feel. Just being you okay.

Ah, I trust you, I already said that you are like my mother from different womb. Ah. I don't know what I should write, I'll call you sahaja. hahaha

Best Regards,

RH"

"Ms. Izza (Mak Cik I)

Dear Mak Cik I (Ms. Izza)

Short time but I enjoy all thing with you. Hopefully could see you guys again. And for Alexa team, we are the golden team.

Alexa Boleh

SM"

"To: Izzah

From: D

Hi Alexa!

Thank you for not believing me when I said I'm a boring person and thank you for hugging me after I did the trust game well. You are the life of this group.

You guys are like older sibling figures for me. (Note that I don't know what it feels like to have siblings because I'm the only child) I don't talk a lot but you guys managed to get me involved and for that I thank you so much."

"Dear Izzah,

For the first time I met you. I think that you are so sweet even though you're older that us but you can blend in and understand us so well. You're so very rare. Rare means good. I believe that you can be the best part of you and empower other because your strength. I hope we always keep in touch even in social media.

D, 29/6/2019

Palangkaraya"

"To: Mak Cik 'Izzah'

First time I meet you. I feel like you're amazing woman and kind. You're humble person and you give we all of the inspiration. 

I'm so happy to meet you. :)

DG"

"Ma Cik Izzah, Mom Izza, Sister Izza,

Thank you Ma'cik you always make we are happy, funny and you to be honest I love you ma cik, thank you my love <3

Sorry, I'm not perfect speak English but I keep goin with you. Don't forget me please~ :( from g. double-o-d-j-ob good job 2x

Thank you thank you and sorry, my love <3

E"

"Teruntuk saudariku Izzah

Teriring terima kasih kusampaikan, telah datang ke kota "CANTIK" Palangka Raya, maaf pelayananku masih kurang, maaf bahasa inggerisku tidak bagus.

Terima kasih dapat mengerti penjelasanku. Kamu sosok yang luar biasa, kamu tidak memandang yang lebih tua seperti saya untuk dikesampingkan, kamu menganggap kita selayak teman sebaya.

So many thingd I want to sa, but my limitations convey it. Very proud to meet and be friendly with you.

PL"

"Dearest Iza!

Since the first time you introduce De**, you show the positive energy and that my friend is always needed. The world needs more people with the po~~~~sitive energy. You're such a brilliant, warm, lovely person. I'm honored to know you and to know story of your life. GURL YOU'RE TOUGH. A YOUNG INDEPENDENT YOUNG LADY!! We love that! If you ever need anything, please don't hesitate to call me, text me or even email me!

Gurl! I adore you, your brain, your personality, your look. Everything about you. You're like a big sister to me, a lost sister of mine to be sure, it's like I didn't know I need you but your presence in my life is apparently essential for my inner peace.

You'll do more than just amazing things in life. I'm sure of that. See you when I see you later sister! <3 <3 

I LOVE YOU!!!

With <3

AA"

"Dear Izzah,

The world would be better place if we have lot more people like you! It's an honor to know you. Good luck with your study

<3 LM"

"Assalammualaikum Kak Izza.

Its maybe too late to send you a letter. I don't have one. But, I just wanna say. Thank u so much and I am sorry.

Thank you for everything you did, those make a sense to me. Youre very humble and friendly. You made me feel like have a new sis. <3

I am sorry Kak Izza, in the last day, I cant accompany you and Wi** to go to the airport (I had a reason for), and sorry if you were feeling uncomfortable when I was near with you.

In the end, maybe just that which I can tell to you. I hope we can meet up again! <3

With love,

AN"

"Izzah * <3<3<3

Hello Makcik, sorry eh aku pun terinfluenced with the idea of calling you 'Mak Cik' but not. You're my sister, like our mother, sister name it, its you, because you really knows how to take care of me & us. especially when we both are here & in airport because you know I was the clueless & sleepy the whole time. The funny thing is we have everything the same. I see  everything you have and I have it too. Macam for me, the thing is I write it here, its kinda hard pasalnya I'm definitely going to meet you again & have our session together right. But hey, you gotta need to meet someone special ok because we can't wait for your wedding day and all of us are going to reunite again!!! I'm happy that I could finally meet & know you because it's funny. Like why now? why not before this or before, before ani? Haha faith ya makcik haha so annoying whw tapi cali. When it comes to perkara lain, you're amazing & unexpected ok. 

Hey, I love you forever & ever

Alexa

Sincerely from 

Izzahwi**, not Izzah ehe"

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Okay that's the end of love letters from Palangka Raya~ Now that I'm re-reading it and typing it for this. It makes me sad, not in a bad way. I miss the times where I can just knock on someone's room and chit chat for long hours or even had our beauty routine! It was definitely an amazing trip I had this year. In all honesty, I still think that I don't deserve the programme but I'm really glad that I went. On the other note, I feel sorry for them because I HAVE VERY LITTLE ALMOST NONE Indonesia language skill :(((((( I was having a hard time understanding what they were trying to say but I'm still blessed with friends around me that are willing to explain what it means and they even speak in English for me~~~ Thank you guysss!! You're amazing!! P/S, not that I speak English all the time, I use Malay as well but more like standard Malay and as you all know, there are differences in some terms so.... there was still language barrier in that term :/

All in all, it was still an amazing experience!
Thank you beautiful souls!

Assalammualaikum and hi!

I'm back!!!

First of all I would like to sincerely apologize for not posting anything for the past few months...

There were so many things happened and I just needed time to organize my feelings and moreover my mental health. 

To be honest, things have been really hard for me. I mean not all the time but then again, life is unexpected as it is. There are times like unexpected events happening in our everyday life, and we got so caught up in the moment. Sometimes it's easy to just let it go but there are times where you question everything and that makes it more harder to understand... Don't you think the so?

By the way, while typing this.. I'm actually typing it down after hassling myself with last minute... urgent matter....? relating to my studies.... oh... yeah... my studies...

Masters...

is

not

what

I

expected

it

to

be

like seriously... I thought I'd be able to pull it off on the second semester... but nasib tak menyebelahi diri ini.... and on the 7th August, I received an email saying it is possible for re-admission. That is just for re-admission approval and it took another whole month to get my offer letter. Like... just why? But ugh.. sorry for the saltiness! 

Anyway, I'm not going to talk about that for now.

Back to the main thing that I want to share with you guys.

So when I was away... I mean when I announced to you guys that I will be away until further notice... it was because I got selected to represent my faculty to go to Palangka Raya in Central Kalimantan Indonesia for Youth Leadership Global Discovery Programme. The programme was 8 days programme and it was really tight.. OH! The best part is that.... I didn't go alone! Like Yaaaayyyyy!

 I was with my fellow friend and we share the same name too! Like HI TWINSIE!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

I guess some of you guys are wondering. How did I get that? Why am I nominated? To be honest.... I was surprised that the other participants were waaaaay younger than me like oh wow.... guys, I can feel the age gap! OMG~

Anyway, a good friend texted me on Instagram and asked if I'm interested to apply for a short programme commence on the 24th June - 30th June 2019 under Borneo Studies Network for Youth Leadership Global Discovery Programme. He said he won't be able to go for the programme so I applied for it. Not long after that on Thursday 20th June 2019, I got a text from admin that I need to meet them and get some documents done. I was dazed for a while cause I couldn't believe that I got selected to go to Palangka Raya! When I got to uni, I went to admin building and met the officers for the programme. I was soooo curious who will be going with me to Kalimantan. There were so many things in my head....

Meeting time..

The room was so bright because of the lights coming through the glass window. I felt awkward.. Because everyone else were staring at me as I sat down.... I sat there awkwardly with my smile until this lady came to me. She sat next to me and I asked:

 "Are you here for the briefing?"

"Yes" she replied.

Not long after that, we were approached by two officers and they introduced themselves. They gave us a short briefing on the programme and what are the Do's and Don'ts.  I asked about how are we gonna go there and what are the things that we should prepare prior to the programme. It wasn't clear cause the programme was tentative even before we flew to Kalimantan. Before meeting my twinsie, I was assigned to go with Aniza (not her real name). She even made a passport for the first trip of her life outside Brunei. I was excited and scared at the same time because the officers expected me to "jaga" her. I mean I don't mind but I haven't been to Jakarta and Kalimantan before this soooo you know~~ I'm just scared that I can't be a good companion (cause of the age gap as well). During the meeting with the officers, we were told that we will be flying off on Sunday 23rd June 2019 and we thought we have time to buy travel insurance on Saturday and meet friends over lunch but things weren't on our side. In the evening on the same day, I received text from the group with the officers and the person I'm going with to Kalimantan that we will be leaving Brunei ON SATURDAY MORNING (22nd June 2019).  

We... have to go on.. Saturday.... like, SATURDAY? I had plans on that day... I mean, go buy travel insurance in the morning and then uni for Raya celebration with my favorite person, Ms Y. Actually Ms Y wanted me to help her out with the booth for Raya celebration and after that, meet my friends over dinner but since I received a very last minute update regarding the flight, I have to cancel everything and do some of the things on Friday. I had packed schedule on that Friday cause I have to buy travel insurance in the morning and Friday prayer break from 12PM-2PM, then I have to change some money to US and Rupiah and it took the whole afternoon to look for Rupiah cause the money changers that I usually go ran out Indonesian Rupiah. While looking for other money changer in Bandar area, I saw this money changer was about to close and asked if they still have Rupiah and luckily they still have some Rupiah! Then souvenir shopping! Ya Ampun~~ the only thing that I can think of that time was postcards and I don't know how many people participating the programme and how many buddies will be with us. So, I decided to buy just postcards (Tips: if you go any programme abroad, I recommend you to buy postcard cause you can write something on it too! This gives sentimental value to it. At least, to me!)... AND OH! Aniza backed out from the programme  and she got replaced by another student from her faculty. I was told that she shares the same name as me and for this blog I will be naming her Mak Cik II (cause both me and her have similar personalities and preferences on things and that nick name was given by the participants from Indonesia) and if you are asking who is Mak Cik I, that would be me.

After getting souvenirs and my other necessities I went home and start packing my stuff from the checklists.

✅ Clothes, Pants, Headscarves (Casual, sport wear, Baju Kurung)
✅ Undergarments
✅ Toiletries and Sanitaries
✅ Contact lens, solution, glasses
✅ Make-up kit
✅ Perfume
✅ Medicines, first aid kit
✅ Power bank
✅ Laptop
✅ Chargers (Phone, Laptop, Watch)
✅ Travel documents, passport
✅ Stationary, note book, novel
✅ Money!

I finished packing my stuff around 2AM and slept after that.... I slept pretty late that day and ughhh why can't I just sleep early? Have my beauty sleep before my long flight with multiple transits :((( My flight was at 9.15AM to Singapore then 10.05PM flight to Jakarta and 5.40AM to Palangkaraya. Yes I arrived in Palangkaraya, Central Kalimantan on Sunday, 7.35AM (8.35PM Brunei time). I didn't sleep the whole time so I was really exhausted when I arrived in Palangkaraya. My friend and I crashed pretty early the first night we were there. We stayed at Dandang Tingang Hotel for the entire programme. We officially started our programme on Monday, 24th June 2019 at Universitas Palangkaraya.

Welcome to Borneo Studies Network Youth Leadership Global Discovery Programme, Cohort II